this is my release..

I hate confrontation. I keep my emotions tied up inside until they burst onto someone I don't mean them to. This is why I am sharing this before that happens.. This is guided to people that I no longer have to deal with on a daily basis that just piss me off beyond extent.

 I am bad at telling you to your face, but let me tell you that you are a b***h and that i do not appreciate it at all. I am glad that i cut those strings and no longer have to put up with you or your bullshit. The way that you treat people is just because you are not doing anything with your life doesn't mean that you have to treat people with such intolerable behavior that are doing well in life. I have finally have 24 years of tears, pain, unbreakable decisions, hate, anger, blood, and hope i have gotten somewhere that i can say that i am proud of. You don't know me and you don't know where I come from and you never will so .. bite me.  I don't need you. I don't want you. I am cleaning house and don't want you to come near me. Thanks have a good day. 

so i am in the middle of my second day off..

two days in a row off.. what to do. I have done so much stuff around the house and such it is awsome to just do what you want at the pace you want to do it. I am very excited for that. I am kinda sad that i wont have a thanksgiving dinner, but life will go on. The first time i feel confident that i can cook something, but oh well we will see what we do for christmas dinner. oh well, until next time. <3.

is looking forward to the next two days..

So after tonight's client, it will be my first real day off with neither job and time to myself since the 8th.. it is now the 21st.. geez that sucks but man am i looking forward to it. I love my job and its so great but please do not call me to come in because no no no i wont do it. thanks see you later.

ps.. you know you are in the midwest when you want to end everything in ya'll. ew gross haha. <3.

a new beginning..

so today is the last unofficial day of work because this is my last day of vacation.. and thats it. all done no more starbucks. I have been working so much at Alpha and i really enjoy it and its such good experience for me. Right now i don't need to worry about money or school or anything right now and that is such a good feeling not knowing what will come next or how many hours i can squeeze out of the system it is kinda nice. This week i have over 50 hours at Alpha and 19 at starbucks for this week so that is fine with me. I start school on my sisters birthday it is all piecing itself together which is what i need right now. So at the end of 2011 if all goes well i will have a bachelors degree in nursing, own a house with my love, have over 2 years nursing experience and hopefully be married. Nothing is for certain, but they do have a way of working out. YAY! cant wait to see what happens next.

so i think its time..

I have worked a little over 28 hours this week.. ITS TUESDAY!!! tomorrow is another 14+ hour day followed by 3x 8 hour days and than a trip to chicago with Rachel. Yay can not wait to go to the city i miss and love. So the decision has come to do i wait it out till December kill my self and possibly risk getting sick from stress as i normally do around this time of year. So i am just in such a dilemma. ugh..