one more week to go.

Why is it the week you are suppose to go vacation is the most hectic week of work, housework, organization, packing, etc etc? it does not make sense to me. After i go into work today at 9pm til 9am I will have a whopping 22 hours for the week.. ITS ONLY TUESDAY! haha. Because I have been working over nighters I have not been getting much sleep on top of everything else. Well hopefully after today the guest bedroom will be done and that will be one less thing to worry about. I am also hoping to send out my few straggler christmas cards and than on to the next project.. birthday invitations and packing. Sounds like a fun filled week.. NOT! oh well such is life. until next time.

days like today!

are awsome! I am so glad that I am happy, I am healthy, I have a great boyfriend that takes care of me, a house to protect me and keep me warm, I have friends in all the right places and I have a job I enjoy so much. Today was such a good day and this is why i want to be a nurse because clients like mine appreciate it so much. <3.

this is my release..

I hate confrontation. I keep my emotions tied up inside until they burst onto someone I don't mean them to. This is why I am sharing this before that happens.. This is guided to people that I no longer have to deal with on a daily basis that just piss me off beyond extent.

 I am bad at telling you to your face, but let me tell you that you are a b***h and that i do not appreciate it at all. I am glad that i cut those strings and no longer have to put up with you or your bullshit. The way that you treat people is just because you are not doing anything with your life doesn't mean that you have to treat people with such intolerable behavior that are doing well in life. I have finally have 24 years of tears, pain, unbreakable decisions, hate, anger, blood, and hope i have gotten somewhere that i can say that i am proud of. You don't know me and you don't know where I come from and you never will so .. bite me.  I don't need you. I don't want you. I am cleaning house and don't want you to come near me. Thanks have a good day. 

so i am in the middle of my second day off..

two days in a row off.. what to do. I have done so much stuff around the house and such it is awsome to just do what you want at the pace you want to do it. I am very excited for that. I am kinda sad that i wont have a thanksgiving dinner, but life will go on. The first time i feel confident that i can cook something, but oh well we will see what we do for christmas dinner. oh well, until next time. <3.

is looking forward to the next two days..

So after tonight's client, it will be my first real day off with neither job and time to myself since the 8th.. it is now the 21st.. geez that sucks but man am i looking forward to it. I love my job and its so great but please do not call me to come in because no no no i wont do it. thanks see you later.

ps.. you know you are in the midwest when you want to end everything in ya'll. ew gross haha. <3.

a new beginning..

so today is the last unofficial day of work because this is my last day of vacation.. and thats it. all done no more starbucks. I have been working so much at Alpha and i really enjoy it and its such good experience for me. Right now i don't need to worry about money or school or anything right now and that is such a good feeling not knowing what will come next or how many hours i can squeeze out of the system it is kinda nice. This week i have over 50 hours at Alpha and 19 at starbucks for this week so that is fine with me. I start school on my sisters birthday it is all piecing itself together which is what i need right now. So at the end of 2011 if all goes well i will have a bachelors degree in nursing, own a house with my love, have over 2 years nursing experience and hopefully be married. Nothing is for certain, but they do have a way of working out. YAY! cant wait to see what happens next.

so i think its time..

I have worked a little over 28 hours this week.. ITS TUESDAY!!! tomorrow is another 14+ hour day followed by 3x 8 hour days and than a trip to chicago with Rachel. Yay can not wait to go to the city i miss and love. So the decision has come to do i wait it out till December kill my self and possibly risk getting sick from stress as i normally do around this time of year. So i am just in such a dilemma. ugh..

first day of work at my new job

I am so excited and scared and nervous that all of the first time jitters just keep flowing. yay! its so exciting i can barely hide it. 

so a new journey..

I finally did it.. i put in my notice for starbucks. My last day will be in December and yes your thinking that is so far away, but really it is not and this is for me. i start my new job this weekend and pretty much every weekend from now on on top of starbucks and going to school in january so it is much needed for the experience. i can not wait to see what the next chapters are to come. yay and to get my friend back yay! oh and i have a date with her tomorrow which makes me super happy too. i miss her, work sucks and i can barely look at her without it being awkward. so yeah. <3.

moving..

this move has been unlike others because i am the master of packing and moving since i have moved (and packed) four times in the past year and this will be it for a long long time or at least i am hoping. This place feels so nice an comfortable and i can not wait to make it my home. I only have one more box left in my room.. yay! I am also planning a house warming party on the 14th of november which i am very excited for as well you are invited to my home now gimme your money and presents.. thanks now leave.. jk. <3.

thinking about paint colors

so paint .. i want to paint our new house because let me tell you i hate plain walls but it is so expensive and i am the only one that is motivated to do it. 

eat in kitchen: top blue

living room: third green down

kitchen: third yellow down

small bath: second orange down

large bath: dark grey

master bed: third blue down

what do you think? 

 I can't wait 

this feeling

its a feeling of sadness that is so familiar, yet so distant. So weird. I don't understand why is it that when you think that everything is put into order and things are going your way that you just don't seem to be happy or all there. tell me why this is?

WORK.. update

I got so excited talking about the house i forgot to mention this.. I still hate Starbucks and it kinda sucks there, but I was hired on to an assisted care facility which i quit not even a 2 weeks later, not because i was killing myself doing both, but they don;t offer benefits. To get onto peters it would be like $200+ A MONTH!! i can't afford that.. sorry. So i had an interview at an agency and they have benefits and all the other jazz too so I am setting up with them and than going from there. we will see what happens. taking it as it goes. 

OUR first HOUSE

So we finally closed and got the keys  on our first house yesterday while i was at work .. of course. and i am so excited to say that we can finally have our own space and decorate it how we want and do what ever we want to it. This makes me so excited. We are moving slowly even though I am completely against the idea, we really don't have any hurry to move super fast either. So until next time.. 

Montreal Weekend Wedding trip

So on Labor day weekend, Peter and I, went to Montreal for his step-sisters wedding reception. Being the first

 place that i have needed a passport to travel too it was definitely different. I guess

mainly because Montreal was part of France at one time EVERYTHING is written in french so weird, it felt like a completely different place. It was a weekend filled with drunken debauchery, not enough sleep, being a tourist, and plenty of adventure. and here are some pictures that we took too. yay! 

Work.. how i hate thee

So i hate the fact that people can be so inconsiderate and treat you like shit.. and act liek they are still high school.. LETS GROW UP PEOPLE!!!!

cacadas..

Cacadas really make me feel uneasy.. its like a horror movie and they are trying to kill you. Ugh.. Disturbing. 

The beginning..

I have always wanted to post on a blog but never knew and/or had the motivation to do so. Well, now i can and cambric does it now, so we will see what happens. =D. Excited.. We have lived in Urbana since April and let me tell you i am so sick of moving (moved 3 times in a year) that i could hurt someone. But we have to move one more time once we get our new house. Nothing is for certain yet, but i am keeping my fingers crossed. I am really hoping for this house and everything works out, but who knows at this point. can't wait. until next time.