so no one tells you..

(Please be for warned, this is a looooooooooooong rant.)

So no one tells you its hard or that it sucks to plan a wedding. Well take it from me IT DOES! or at least for me it did. Everyone says that it is fabulous and fun, it wasn't for me.
 I am a very busy person and i love being a busy body, I am always doing something or more. I never relax and just watch TV unless I am really tired, I usually have a crochet project I am working on as well. Anyways, I love planning parties, the invitations, the appetizers, dinner (if needed), the cocktails, and the games.. I LOVE IT! Well this party is different. This is hopefully a once in a lifetime party, there are no do overs and a pretty strict budget.
Well, I am in nursing school, I love decorating my house and I work full time (32+ hours a week, except this upcoming semester).. that is enough in itself. Well add a wedding and everything changes. I can manage the other three just fine. Peter knows this about me.
We jumped into wedding planning right away. We changed our date 3x from december (2 dates) to august. So we only had 8 months to plan. In all reality that is not very much time. Luckily, I went into the bridal store and I found a dress I loved right away. I knew, just like everyone says. I went in not knowing what I wanted except a vintage vibe. I was originally looking at A-line short dresses, but that is not what I fell in love with. Two days after I went in by myself my parents and grandma came up from two and half hours away saw the dress, and that was it. There was no spectacle or huge crowd just the four of us and that made me so happy.
Full wedding planning went into effect and we started looking for a venue. We wanted something vintage, old and with some personality. In a small town sometimes you have luck and well sometimes you don't. We had a few prospects but they were costly. We were on a $10,000 budget including honeymoon. Well we got lucky. We found a neat mod retro office building that holds events and because P's company cleans it we got it discounted since the company had the insurance to cover it (this is why prices are so high for venues). We paid $450 for 24 hours for this space which was quite a pleasant surprise.
So we were off to a good start and than life kicked in. With this semester being hard  and life just going full throttle I needed help, but P did not want to be involved. I was also hosting my own wedding shower and it was so stressful. I couldn't do it all by myself, but my mom, my friend jess and p's mom came to the rescue and it all happened.
Well, everything was fine. I made the invitations with out p's help and it was crazy. We had 3 days of assembly lines to get things done. Blah blah blah things kept continuing to get stressful and I kept pushing it away. Well this led to more than one huge fight and in the beginning of  July P's mom came down to help me with stuff, but i was not ready for that. There were non-stop questions I just couldn't deal with. well P and his mom decided (while I was at work) he was going to take over now. WEll, I felt like a failed. Like a girl should be able to do this without a problem and I couldn't. It led to a few fights and things just got easy to talk about and do.
Now things are great and I am not stressed at all, but all of that process did suck. Now that we are 4 days away I could not be happier to marry my best friend. I am so excited.