home sweet LA

As you may or may not know, I am from Los Angeles (LA) California. It is home. 

I moved to the midwest almost 5 years ago and with P's new job I am frequenting more often.

As I was there last week I came to the conclusion that LA is bitter sweet place for me. 

I still have really good friends that live there and of course my family, but at the same time I am constantly reminded of the not so great times as well. 

When I was running around the "city", I use that term loosely because its more of sprawling metropolis, I would be reminded  of my exs. I  do not talk to any of them at this time, but I feel like in a way I "ran away" from all of these stereotypes and problems, so that I could establish a new life for myself. 

Well, I have done just that. 

I have a lovely house, an amazing husband and a real job doing what I love. 

I still feel like I just don't fit in here. I am the person they want me to be, as opposed to the person I am. 

I find myself being more reserved or keeping my mouth shut because I want to be liked. 

It is just different, but in a good way. 

It is hard to compare, but Reese Witherspoon in Sweet Home Alabama said it best by saying," This fits too." referring to living in Alabama and New York.