Friday, March 22, 2013

home sweet LA

As you may or may not know, I am from Los Angeles (LA) California. It is home. 
I moved to the midwest almost 5 years ago and with P's new job I am frequenting more often.

As I was there last week I came to the conclusion that LA is bitter sweet place for me. 
I still have really good friends that live there and of course my family, but at the same time I am constantly reminded of the not so great times as well. 

When I was running around the "city", I use that term loosely because its more of sprawling metropolis, I would be reminded  of my exs. I  do not talk to any of them at this time, but I feel like in a way I "ran away" from all of these stereotypes and problems, so that I could establish a new life for myself. 

Well, I have done just that. 
I have a lovely house, an amazing husband and a real job doing what I love. 
I still feel like I just don't fit in here. I am the person they want me to be, as opposed to the person I am. 
I find myself being more reserved or keeping my mouth shut because I want to be liked. 

It is just different, but in a good way. 
It is hard to compare, but Reese Witherspoon in Sweet Home Alabama said it best by saying," This fits too." referring to living in Alabama and New York. 



  1. I know just how you feel! I grew up in East L.A. until I went away to Frisco for College and then moved to Washington State with my husband about 6 years ago. It is def bitter sweat for me when I go back. Because my huge family is there but I pretty much feel the exact same way you do.

  2. I feel the same way about Chicago <3 S.


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