absences

As I woke up that morning I had a million things on my mind. Such as what should I wear, what's going to happen today, will it be that bad, is this the right decision, etc. Let's rewind. I started this position at the local health department while I was still in school. I have been at this position 2 weeks shy of 1 year. This was my first "real" nursing job. That is so hard to think about. Sometimes I can't believe that it is all real. Ok back to that day.. I kept reverting back to high school on the last day when everyone is so happy to be out of there, but sad that your friends wont be together. My last day of work was uneventful and slightly disappointing. I spent the whole morning giving vaccinations. I have been scarred of giving shots for the last year because your injecting someone with a known substance and hoping nothing will happen. I do not give a lot of shots, but today was the exception. I think I gave over 50 shots that morning. It was a day of a ton of emotions for me and a lot of anxiety of the unknown.

Now that it has been 4 days in my new position at a local hospital, these feelings have faded. As I sit in orientation, working in a hospital it is still so surreal to me. I have never been the person who thought that this was an option for me.  I have not been on the floor yet, everyone during orientation has been super nice. I feel like we have been getting front loaded with a ton of information. I have noticed that just sitting and listening to people talk is more emotionally and physically tiring than being up and mobile. I also find myself constantly being hungry, all i want to do is eat. What I do eat never seems to be enough, which is crazy to me.

Isn't it funny how our bodies respond to stress, anxiety and soemthign new. It amazes me how well things have been going besides being hungry and tired. On the plus side, I am sleeping slightly better and my husband has been home this week (at 4am), but still.

Any strange new changes in your life?

changes..

They happen often, sometime without warning but are usually welcomed.

 (no I am not pregnant)

This is different..

Anyways, do you believe in fortune cookies? Ido.

Well, It's true.

I got this fortune on friday (9/28) and I found out yesterday(10/3)

pretty awsome, right?

I think so.

I will be working at a local hospital getting some real experience and trying to find what I like.

I am pretty excited for this new change.

Any big changes happening in your life?

3 things thursday

So this has been a really long and hard work week for me so to say that I am happy that it is almost over is an understatement, but lets contiue with three things (that made me happy this week) thursday

1. I found my new favorite perfume (per say)

My favorite thing is smelling like an old person

2. Knowing the marathon is in a week and a half.. ugh.

I am excited and nervous all at the same time. This martahon I will be running with my partner in crime from derby who has the same name as me. Even though this is my number 7 this is her first. We are just running to finish but i would love to finish in sub 5 but we will see how it goes.

 Any ideas for running outfits? anyone.. bueller?

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Yes, I am completely crazy, but I like it that way.

3.  P will coming home this weekend and we have a date night planned.

Last Monday he was not suppose to work, but called in anyways and had to rush back to ohio where he has been working 14 hour days. I miss him a lot this week so we are planning on having a date night this weekend and I am so happy.

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Maybe it will be half as entertaining as this movie.. heres for hoping.

What are the things that made you happy this week? 

3 things thursday

The little things in life make me happy these days..

1. the fact that my inner thighs hurt from doing plow stops on Tuesday

It stilll makes my inner thighs sore but its by far my favorite stop.

2. This sign

Number 7 here I come, ready or not

I will talk more about my marathon stuff in a later post but 3 weeks from Saturday I will be running and running and running

3. It's thursday and the week is almost over and I am paintint again when I get home.

More on that later too.

What's making you happy this week?

2 weeks notice..

Not the movie.. you know the Sandra Bullock film that was 

mediocre and you hated to love Hugh Grant. 

Oh.. those eyes.

Anyways, today I put in my 2 weeks notice at my old job.

Alpha Care. Here is a quote/photo I found insanely appropriate.

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Love it.

Today!

You know here where I couldn't tell you anything.. Well, I got a NEW JOB as a NURSE!!!!!! I start TODAY!!!

I am so excited. Of course I am not a real nurse yet but its getting close and I will be training until I take the NCLEX, etc. I am so very excited

Focus... focus.. focus

I am not in the focussing and full school mode right now. During this summer I have the take 2 classes: mental health and pediatrics. Both are interesting subjects and lets face it, I am an over achiever sometimes .. BUT I can not focus with the sunshine to play in and all the crocheting I can do at work. Yesterday I made a hat and I also finished a heart pillow this week. It is so relaxing and more fun than stupid studying.. ugh.

p.s. by the way I am trying to get in shape for the wedding aftermath of our honey moon.. double ugh.

Where you've been..

I have been super busy with work (being in high demand for a week) and school with finals creeping up on me and I told peters mom i would cook easter dinner (why did i say that) and the half marathon i signed up to get motivated (still not working and its less than 2 weeks away) and the BIG wedding shower is slowly approaching.. WHY OH WHY!

well that sums it up in a nutshell and besides working 43 hours last week its been tough. I have a really big test tomorrow that i can no longer study for because my brain might explode with kidney function and cast placements (OH BOY, RIGHT? yeah thats me right now and mix it up with some cancer and were good to go)

Anyways, i completed my 2nd baby blanket this year, a couple weeks ago and just mailed it so here you go.  It is going to my friend Amy (I call her Amyers) (she already has it, so i can post it now)

What do you think?

one more week to go.

Why is it the week you are suppose to go vacation is the most hectic week of work, housework, organization, packing, etc etc? it does not make sense to me. After i go into work today at 9pm til 9am I will have a whopping 22 hours for the week.. ITS ONLY TUESDAY! haha. Because I have been working over nighters I have not been getting much sleep on top of everything else. Well hopefully after today the guest bedroom will be done and that will be one less thing to worry about. I am also hoping to send out my few straggler christmas cards and than on to the next project.. birthday invitations and packing. Sounds like a fun filled week.. NOT! oh well such is life. until next time.

days like today!

are awsome! I am so glad that I am happy, I am healthy, I have a great boyfriend that takes care of me, a house to protect me and keep me warm, I have friends in all the right places and I have a job I enjoy so much. Today was such a good day and this is why i want to be a nurse because clients like mine appreciate it so much. <3.

this is my release..

I hate confrontation. I keep my emotions tied up inside until they burst onto someone I don't mean them to. This is why I am sharing this before that happens.. This is guided to people that I no longer have to deal with on a daily basis that just piss me off beyond extent.

 I am bad at telling you to your face, but let me tell you that you are a b***h and that i do not appreciate it at all. I am glad that i cut those strings and no longer have to put up with you or your bullshit. The way that you treat people is just because you are not doing anything with your life doesn't mean that you have to treat people with such intolerable behavior that are doing well in life. I have finally have 24 years of tears, pain, unbreakable decisions, hate, anger, blood, and hope i have gotten somewhere that i can say that i am proud of. You don't know me and you don't know where I come from and you never will so .. bite me.  I don't need you. I don't want you. I am cleaning house and don't want you to come near me. Thanks have a good day. 

so i am in the middle of my second day off..

two days in a row off.. what to do. I have done so much stuff around the house and such it is awsome to just do what you want at the pace you want to do it. I am very excited for that. I am kinda sad that i wont have a thanksgiving dinner, but life will go on. The first time i feel confident that i can cook something, but oh well we will see what we do for christmas dinner. oh well, until next time. <3.

is looking forward to the next two days..

So after tonight's client, it will be my first real day off with neither job and time to myself since the 8th.. it is now the 21st.. geez that sucks but man am i looking forward to it. I love my job and its so great but please do not call me to come in because no no no i wont do it. thanks see you later.

ps.. you know you are in the midwest when you want to end everything in ya'll. ew gross haha. <3.

a new beginning..

so today is the last unofficial day of work because this is my last day of vacation.. and thats it. all done no more starbucks. I have been working so much at Alpha and i really enjoy it and its such good experience for me. Right now i don't need to worry about money or school or anything right now and that is such a good feeling not knowing what will come next or how many hours i can squeeze out of the system it is kinda nice. This week i have over 50 hours at Alpha and 19 at starbucks for this week so that is fine with me. I start school on my sisters birthday it is all piecing itself together which is what i need right now. So at the end of 2011 if all goes well i will have a bachelors degree in nursing, own a house with my love, have over 2 years nursing experience and hopefully be married. Nothing is for certain, but they do have a way of working out. YAY! cant wait to see what happens next.

so i think its time..

I have worked a little over 28 hours this week.. ITS TUESDAY!!! tomorrow is another 14+ hour day followed by 3x 8 hour days and than a trip to chicago with Rachel. Yay can not wait to go to the city i miss and love. So the decision has come to do i wait it out till December kill my self and possibly risk getting sick from stress as i normally do around this time of year. So i am just in such a dilemma. ugh..